: an interruption in the intensity or amount of something
Yes, the word, “hiatus” is fitting.. The time I have spent away from this blog, my stricter goals.. it has all amounted to this past Friday. And now, I am here. Sometimes it is as simple as getting back on that horse. And sometimes that recovery between rides takes time. But enough of the generalizations for now. Here’s what went down.
I lived in an apartment with a very good childhood friend. My friend and I used to have the same lifestyle; we meshed, we flowed. Over time however, things changed.. more specifically – I changed. I changed my mind on a few things, such as food, relationships, and beliefs. Now, that’s not to say I change my mind about everything, though depending on whom you ask it could sound that way. I simply followed my heart on matters I wouldn’t allow myself to address previously.
These changes didn’t occur easily. I don’t believe change is naturally easy, but this was quite difficult. I had temptation all around me! And a friend who would provide for me, no matter what. While it is true that most of the time I don’t care at all for meat, there’s a few days in each month when I do. It sucks! I don’t want to eat meat, obviously.. But living in that apartment with my friend situated me to giving in at times.. and much like a one-night-stand might leave you, I was left feeling somewhat physically satisfied but filled with the tinge of regret.
This past Friday I have removed all temptations from my homestead.. by relocating altogether. I’ve moved to the town I’ve always wanted.. moved in with my partner, and moved into a new household without those things I had been trying to get rid of. And those things were more than just meat, people. Not to belittle the concept of abstaining from meat, but to impress upon any readers that there were many temptations for me to get rid of. More than I’d like to share on an online forum with anonymous eyes.. I’m sure you can understand.
So now I have landed.. back on my own turf with my rules with my life. And it feels good. 🙂 I thank God for the chance to regroup and grow as a human being. And here’s to looking at a fully vegan lifestyle! (And in terms of all the other things, a much healthier lifestyle altogether)
‘m happy to have this community as a support and as an inspiration. ❤
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